Post by SIRIUS ORION BLACK on Feb 6, 2018 3:30:52 GMT -6
the world in which sirius had a child
and then lost it all
how much are you willing to do to those around you? anything. anything at all.
are you willing to die? absolutely. as many times as necessarily.
why did you still betray them all? i don't know.
then you stay put.
go through this conversation at least 174 times a day.
make sure to relive the horrifying moments of your life over and over again. the news about regulus dying. the death of the prewett's dorcas found dead.
but above all, relive the most painful moments of your life over and over again. feel the pain ripping inside of you, tearing you into pieces. thinking that remus was a traitor. staring into the dead of the mother of his child, marlene. the burnt ruins of the potters house. saying goodbye to his infant son for the last time.
this all will ensure that you will suffer. suffer for 12 years. because of you, your best friends were killed. because of you, your son does not know you. because of you, so many lives were destroyed.
marlene was gone.
and it was all your fault. It was all his fault and no matter how you tried to go around it. He had been reckless once again and in result of that, his son was to live without his mother or father around him.
And what about little Harry? You let him be taken away. You betrayed james and lily. He had been named the godfather yet he failed. He couldn’t be there for his son nor his godson. What good use was he anymore?
Are you insane? You can’t leave. You deserve to be in this place and die alone. It was your fault that everyone you love is either dead or gone. So where do you think you’re going? He needed to go. Harry was in danger. Rory was in danger. Pettigrew was alive. He had no other choice. He’s in Hogwarts He’s in Hogwarts.
You’re insane. The dementors could not sense him. He was out. With the last bits of his strength he swam in the freezing cold water and when he finally was on land, the big black dog lay on the ground for a bit, trying to stop the world from spinning.
Sirius Black was out of Azkaban, the first ever person to done so. He had to tread carefully but at the same time the burning need to go and see Rory was overwhelming. He was his son after all and he wanted to see if he was okay. Did he resemble more of Sirius or Marlene? Did he have his mothers eyes and his fathers hair? Or was he the spitting image of a potato, who knew.
Someone will see you. You’re a big black dog. You need to go back to Azkaban and let the dementors kiss you. It’s the only way to let the pain go away. Perhaps the only way to make this pain away was to go and see his son. He did so exactly and even if his four legs were still slightly shaky, he still left the rocky beach. What are you going to do when you see him? You’re a fugitive - He had already arrived to the house where he had found out his son lived at the moment. The first glimpses of Rory Black simply was pure joy. The dogs tail starts wagging and he reminds himself that he was hiding. The boy had Marlene’s eyes. The boy was smiling while kicking the football. He was..happy. Something stirred inside of him. Rory was happier without knowing his father. He was soon to know that the dangerous Sirius Black escaped Azkaban and he knew that the child was going to get moved to somewhere safe. Safe from the clutches of his crazy father. His tail stopped wagging. The spark that was there just a second ago, vanishes. Sirius had to hunt Pettigrew down before going to see his son. Knowing your son will always hate you hurts, doesn't it? Good. You deserve it. As always, Sirius agreed with the little voice inside his head and turned away to finish the deed he was meant to do 12 years ago.