stay with me [Evanna] Feb 21, 2017 14:50:49 GMT -6
Post by KODY ALEXANDRE BELANGER on Feb 21, 2017 14:50:49 GMT -6
stay with me.
|If there was something Kody was not good at, it was admitting when he was wrong or when he'd made a mistake. However, even he knew that there were times when he didn't get a choice in the matter. As much as he'd like to live his life without apology, sometimes he had to suck up his pride. Honestly, it shouldn't have taken him as long as it did to get around to making amends with Evanna. She was the most important person in his life and he'd been lost since she walked out their front door months ago. |
In all honesty, he could have moved to apologize to her a couple of weeks prior, but he'd wanted everything to be absolutely perfect. He wanted this to have meaning. He didn't want to just pick some arbitrary day in the middle of whenever to try and win her back. He wanted her to understand that he cared, that he kept any pieces of knowledge about her that he gained close to his chest. More than anything, he needed her to understand that he didn't know what to do without her. He never really had, even through all the times he'd pushed her away in the past.
Paying no mind to the fact that he'd undoubtedly get sand everywhere, Kody sat on a beach in Italy, back against a large rock there and eyes focused out on the water. He was nervous. There was a chance that she wouldn't show. She could just as easily decide she'd finally had enough and refuse to follow the clues he'd left behind for her. He didn't think she'd have trouble figuring them out. But he did worry that she had been pushed too far.
The nerves, usually tucked away somewhere deep inside him, were clear for the world to see, with his brow furrowed and his teeth working at his bottom lip. Kody wasn't supposed to get nervous. He had never allowed it of himself before, instead choosing to take the world on with his head high in the air. But there something about this moment, a moment that felt like it would define the rest of his life, that ate away at his defenses. Even when he'd proposed to Camille, he'd never been so nervous about what someone else would do. There was just something about Evanna that made him more open, more human. He was a fool to have damaged that in any way.
There was still time. He didn't expect her to arrive before the sun began to set, and it still had some time left in the sky. But that did little to ease the growing tension in his gut. If anything, it made the feeling worse. Perhaps he should have waited a little longer before coming to the beach himself, but he hadn't wanted to risk her figuring things out quickly and him not being there. No, this was just another consequence of him being an ass. It was no less than what he deserved after the last few weeks.
Sighing, he let his head fall back against the rock and blue eyes closed out the rest of the world.